Tonight's going to be another shorter post, unfortunately, as I have some things to attend to around the house.
I came across a revelation of my own here.
Life is like a box of chocolates: most of it will probably be stuff you don't like but there's bound to be that one luscious piece somewhere in there.
That is all.
No, not my whole post, just the revelation part.
Some people say life is short and fast; I disagree. I think life is long, and vast. Even if you only live to 30, the experience of life is still a mysterious, slow-moving thing.
One of my philosophies is to avoid commitment of any kind; devotion is a close nephew of delusion. The more absorbed one gets in a cause or faith, the more they become lost.
I would say that in a sense, yes, we are all quite lost, but personally I'd rather be lost in reality or something close to it that something distant and different from it.
Another thing I live by is a combination of these two things: keeping one's options open, and always make a conscious effort to learn.
Many of my good friends have dropped out of school and while I respect their freedom of will, I can't choose the same thing for myself. I think "mind expansion" works both ways; the stoner way and the legitimate way. Expansion of one's actual knowledge affects the capabilities of one's thoughts; in my opinion, the stoner "mind expansion" is a way to bring one's self spiritually closer to fellow human beings. The result of my combining of these two elements has proven my point: I have stayed in school and made a conscious effort to learn, and I have continued to use substances, which I feel brings me closer to my fellow man.
This has got to be my shortest post, my apologies, but I really need to take care of some things around my house. Post your enamorance/hate below.
Peace,
~Michael "Cow" Mullinax
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Make-up ranting, bitching and dreaming. Enjoy.
My apologies for my absence yesterday, I was not able to access a computer pretty much all day, so I'll make it up to y'all with a nice long juicy post with plenty of ranting, bitching, and dreams.
There are a few things I think that are keeping humanity down, and today I'd like to elaborate on what I think they are.
First, overpopulation. 6.8 billion people live on this planet. That's scary. Now yes, there are species who's populations are much greater than that, however the concern is resource-to-life-form ratio. Human existence consumes massive amounts of resources; this has been true since the emergence of humans, early humans moved quickly from area to area and depleted the resources (mainly large game) of those areas. Now we are smart enough to wipe our own asses though, literally and figuratively. We need to choke population growth severely. To ensure the prosperity of humankind (and Earth, I suppose, and I'm speaking as if this was our goal), human population should be closer to say...oh I'm just going to pull a number out of my ass here, let's say...4 billion. That's still a shit load of people, mind you, but 4 billion intelligent mass-resource consuming life-forms to one planet is a better ratio than 7 billion intelligent mass-resource consuming life-forms to one planet.
Second thing wrong: religion (in the way that it currently exists), and war, which I personally believe are one in the same at this point in time. Catholicism, Protestantism, Judaism, Islam, Hinduism, Buddhism, have at some point all killed someone, or masses of people and used their religion as their motive. What I think will solve this problem: a unified democratic-republic world government. We joke about America being "world police", but I think the world NEEDS an Earth-wide enforcer, however it should be a nameless godless associate like "da govermunt" rather than a very apparent western symbol, America. A UWG (Unified World Government, which is how I will refer to it from now on) would enable humankind to do all the cool shit we've been fantasizing about since our supposed conception. What every history class I've ever taken has shown me is: war = national debt, mass loss of life, and decrease in education. The USSR collapsed from the massive Cold War debt they accumulated from their competing nuclear program. Being a bit of an atheist its tempting to think that "ridding the world of religion" would solve all our problems, but clearly, doing so would just be the good old cause-irony.
Lastly, the education of each and every living breathing human soul on the planet. The root of all of our problems is ignorance, or willful ignorance (i.e. stupidity). My point here is simple: an educated world is a more peaceful world, and a peaceful world advances technologically much faster than one in war (although technology acquired by means of war has done humanity a lot of good, we wouldn't have the internet if it were not for our military).
So ends today's rant. On to bitching (although there probably was bit of bitching snuck in there).
I'm officially bored with my life. I do the same things over and over and over, new things I try seem trivial, and things that people try to get me interested in are really difficult for me to engage with. Go to school, come home, go to school, come home, work out, go to school, come home, go to school come home, work out, go to school, drink, smoke, party, come home. Repeat.
I guess the upside is that I have it relatively easy. That is all I have to bitch about at the moment.
Here's a dream. I want to build what I call a "commune-house". It would basically be a house/apartment complex with just ONE big bill to pay off at the end of the month. With lots of people living there, it would be no problem. It would be for all of my loving brothers and sisters (I'm an only child so I think y'all know what I mean), and I hope it would encourage other people in similar situations to do something like that.
I also dream of being a true multitalent philanthropic billionaire. I know it sounds incredibly selfish but that's really what I want to do with my life. It goes along with my belief (which I think is well inline with American liberalism) is that consolidated wealth in the right hands can do a load of good for society. I want to be an awesome guitarist and songwriter, I think I can change people with my music. I want to program the best video games the world has ever seen and make modern technology massively available to anyone and everyone who wants it or needs it. I want to help sew the seeds of tomorrows forests and reconsider how we build our homes with massive quantities of lumber from ancient trees that tenaciously hold on humanity's brinking equilibrium with nature.
As I mentioned in one of my earlier posts, I dream of space exploration. Looking and traveling farther into space will bring us closer to breaching a level of unprecedented transendentalism. Perhaps, exceeding the speed of light, or determining the true origins of matter, or even encountering another sentient species of life.
My blogging juice is now out, post your loyal enamorance/hate below.
Peace,
~Michael "Cow" Mullinax
There are a few things I think that are keeping humanity down, and today I'd like to elaborate on what I think they are.
First, overpopulation. 6.8 billion people live on this planet. That's scary. Now yes, there are species who's populations are much greater than that, however the concern is resource-to-life-form ratio. Human existence consumes massive amounts of resources; this has been true since the emergence of humans, early humans moved quickly from area to area and depleted the resources (mainly large game) of those areas. Now we are smart enough to wipe our own asses though, literally and figuratively. We need to choke population growth severely. To ensure the prosperity of humankind (and Earth, I suppose, and I'm speaking as if this was our goal), human population should be closer to say...oh I'm just going to pull a number out of my ass here, let's say...4 billion. That's still a shit load of people, mind you, but 4 billion intelligent mass-resource consuming life-forms to one planet is a better ratio than 7 billion intelligent mass-resource consuming life-forms to one planet.
Second thing wrong: religion (in the way that it currently exists), and war, which I personally believe are one in the same at this point in time. Catholicism, Protestantism, Judaism, Islam, Hinduism, Buddhism, have at some point all killed someone, or masses of people and used their religion as their motive. What I think will solve this problem: a unified democratic-republic world government. We joke about America being "world police", but I think the world NEEDS an Earth-wide enforcer, however it should be a nameless godless associate like "da govermunt" rather than a very apparent western symbol, America. A UWG (Unified World Government, which is how I will refer to it from now on) would enable humankind to do all the cool shit we've been fantasizing about since our supposed conception. What every history class I've ever taken has shown me is: war = national debt, mass loss of life, and decrease in education. The USSR collapsed from the massive Cold War debt they accumulated from their competing nuclear program. Being a bit of an atheist its tempting to think that "ridding the world of religion" would solve all our problems, but clearly, doing so would just be the good old cause-irony.
Lastly, the education of each and every living breathing human soul on the planet. The root of all of our problems is ignorance, or willful ignorance (i.e. stupidity). My point here is simple: an educated world is a more peaceful world, and a peaceful world advances technologically much faster than one in war (although technology acquired by means of war has done humanity a lot of good, we wouldn't have the internet if it were not for our military).
So ends today's rant. On to bitching (although there probably was bit of bitching snuck in there).
I'm officially bored with my life. I do the same things over and over and over, new things I try seem trivial, and things that people try to get me interested in are really difficult for me to engage with. Go to school, come home, go to school, come home, work out, go to school, come home, go to school come home, work out, go to school, drink, smoke, party, come home. Repeat.
I guess the upside is that I have it relatively easy. That is all I have to bitch about at the moment.
Here's a dream. I want to build what I call a "commune-house". It would basically be a house/apartment complex with just ONE big bill to pay off at the end of the month. With lots of people living there, it would be no problem. It would be for all of my loving brothers and sisters (I'm an only child so I think y'all know what I mean), and I hope it would encourage other people in similar situations to do something like that.
I also dream of being a true multitalent philanthropic billionaire. I know it sounds incredibly selfish but that's really what I want to do with my life. It goes along with my belief (which I think is well inline with American liberalism) is that consolidated wealth in the right hands can do a load of good for society. I want to be an awesome guitarist and songwriter, I think I can change people with my music. I want to program the best video games the world has ever seen and make modern technology massively available to anyone and everyone who wants it or needs it. I want to help sew the seeds of tomorrows forests and reconsider how we build our homes with massive quantities of lumber from ancient trees that tenaciously hold on humanity's brinking equilibrium with nature.
As I mentioned in one of my earlier posts, I dream of space exploration. Looking and traveling farther into space will bring us closer to breaching a level of unprecedented transendentalism. Perhaps, exceeding the speed of light, or determining the true origins of matter, or even encountering another sentient species of life.
My blogging juice is now out, post your loyal enamorance/hate below.
Peace,
~Michael "Cow" Mullinax
Thursday, November 26, 2009
My annoyance with the far-left
I would describe my moral and political stances as being pretty leftist. In fact, in some cases, perhaps too left for most.
Today's rant is: my attack on the super-radical left, people who in my opinion make "tea-baggers" look only slightly moronic.
Let's start with PETA (People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals). I consider PETA a terrorist organization, a green-crazed Al-Qaeda, out to show infidel meat-eating America to respec' mutha Urth.
While I can say yeah, America does some fucked up shit to animals and yeah, we should reconsider how we treat the animals we slaughter or use for food in some other way, I can't legitimize the actions of PETA; breaking into science labs for animal testing is FUCKED UP, bombing car dealerships is FUCKED UP, veganism (not vegetarianism mind you, I practice) is FUCKED UP, PETA IS SERIOUSLY FUCKED UP.
In the 1960s there was an organizatino known as the Weather Underground. While they had a noble cause (mainly to stop the Vietnam War), they went down the road of SNCC: complete and utter cause-for-action IRONY. To protest WAR (i.e. violence and such), WU went so far as to plan to bomb federal buildings, as similarly the SNCC (Student Nonviolent Coordinating Commission) did commit acts of violence in order to further their goals.
When all of this shit stirs around in my mind, I think of a true leftist hero of the '60s: Martin Luther King Junior. He preached brotherhood and peace, and encouraged peaceful protest of the Vietnam War.
In my opinion, Barack Obama was the same way as a senator and during his presidential campaign, however obviously his occupation of high office has somewhat restricted his ability to do "political preaching", as he needs to remain a figure of American leadership and therefore cannot seem to partisan.
The TRUE left is dead in my opinion; the idiots are following PETA and ELF (Earth Liberation Front), the true-blue liberals are too pussy to speak up, and all the other left-of-center liberals are either too far to the right or to corrupt to say a damn thing that matters; the younger generation (class of '08 and before), who would be prime, spree leftists are barely aware of the government's existance, let alone the rest of the world because they have been brainwashed by the American exceptionalist ideals that the right has been flooding and drowning our public schools with.
What I believe the left needs now is new leadership and new rallying cries; new governors, new mayors, new senators, new representatives that know what's going on for America. Local government across American needs its citizen's participation; state and city governments are in collapse because of citizen apathy; as the strength of local government increases, faith in our political system will as well: this, I believe, will lead to the total destruction of the right, who's ideals depend on people's distrust of the government. All you need is a few dry sticks to light a fire and some seasoned logs to keep it going (I guess that makes the far-left, PETA & Co. nitroglycerin).
I'll breifly say what I think the right needs: dolphin tranquilizers, and therapy.
And now my political brain is tired for now. Post your enamorance/hate below.
Peace
~Michael "Cow" Mullinax
Today's rant is: my attack on the super-radical left, people who in my opinion make "tea-baggers" look only slightly moronic.
Let's start with PETA (People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals). I consider PETA a terrorist organization, a green-crazed Al-Qaeda, out to show infidel meat-eating America to respec' mutha Urth.
While I can say yeah, America does some fucked up shit to animals and yeah, we should reconsider how we treat the animals we slaughter or use for food in some other way, I can't legitimize the actions of PETA; breaking into science labs for animal testing is FUCKED UP, bombing car dealerships is FUCKED UP, veganism (not vegetarianism mind you, I practice) is FUCKED UP, PETA IS SERIOUSLY FUCKED UP.
In the 1960s there was an organizatino known as the Weather Underground. While they had a noble cause (mainly to stop the Vietnam War), they went down the road of SNCC: complete and utter cause-for-action IRONY. To protest WAR (i.e. violence and such), WU went so far as to plan to bomb federal buildings, as similarly the SNCC (Student Nonviolent Coordinating Commission) did commit acts of violence in order to further their goals.
When all of this shit stirs around in my mind, I think of a true leftist hero of the '60s: Martin Luther King Junior. He preached brotherhood and peace, and encouraged peaceful protest of the Vietnam War.
In my opinion, Barack Obama was the same way as a senator and during his presidential campaign, however obviously his occupation of high office has somewhat restricted his ability to do "political preaching", as he needs to remain a figure of American leadership and therefore cannot seem to partisan.
The TRUE left is dead in my opinion; the idiots are following PETA and ELF (Earth Liberation Front), the true-blue liberals are too pussy to speak up, and all the other left-of-center liberals are either too far to the right or to corrupt to say a damn thing that matters; the younger generation (class of '08 and before), who would be prime, spree leftists are barely aware of the government's existance, let alone the rest of the world because they have been brainwashed by the American exceptionalist ideals that the right has been flooding and drowning our public schools with.
What I believe the left needs now is new leadership and new rallying cries; new governors, new mayors, new senators, new representatives that know what's going on for America. Local government across American needs its citizen's participation; state and city governments are in collapse because of citizen apathy; as the strength of local government increases, faith in our political system will as well: this, I believe, will lead to the total destruction of the right, who's ideals depend on people's distrust of the government. All you need is a few dry sticks to light a fire and some seasoned logs to keep it going (I guess that makes the far-left, PETA & Co. nitroglycerin).
I'll breifly say what I think the right needs: dolphin tranquilizers, and therapy.
And now my political brain is tired for now. Post your enamorance/hate below.
Peace
~Michael "Cow" Mullinax
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Sexuality, substance use, and my genuine hate for "straight-edge"
One thing I have resented since emerging into adolescence is the government's curious desire to get in our pants and our veins.
There's nothing in our national Constitution that has any language or slightest hint of implication of the denial of sexual/reproductive rights. That doesn't mean the states have tried to weasel their way around that.
For example, a piece of Oregon law essentially states that public schools can't promote tolerance of LGBTs; I'd wager other states have it worse.
On to substance use.
What in our lovely national Constitution (no sarcasm intended, seriously, and I suppose with the obvious exception of "general welfare") says Americans don't have the right to use cocaine or whatever if they want to? NONE OF IT.
Early drug laws made sense (Progressive Era, 1870s-1910s), for the most part they restricted the prescription of medications containing serious narcotics (cocaine, opiates, et cetera) from children (which then meant under 14, it was an age when you could get a job and help support your family, and be taken at least a little bit more seriously by society).
Makes sense, doesn't it? Doctors shouldn't recommend potentially harmful and addictive substances to children, who are probably the most susceptible to the negative consequences of use.
The luxurious times preceding the Great Depression lured people with shitloads money to racist and so-called "puritanical" beliefs, (the temperance movement as it's now known, and maybe you get my wind when I say I don't think Carrie Nation was particularly fond of non-whites...). As the Great Depression rolled in, prohibition became incredibly unpopular as alcoholism ran wild.
Now before I put you to sleep with more history, let's zoom forward back to the early 21st century: alcohol is legal and heavily taxed, the government says alcohol use is naughty and bad, but you can still get off with a 0.08 blood-alcohol level (which is a lot of fucking booze, believe it or not). Right, so according to all of those factors, the government profits off of a more or less widespread addiction (I have no problem with that, actually), but where it gets sticky for me is how you CAN drive drunk legally, and why if its such a damned lucrative income for the government, is it also condemned by the government?
And that's just alcohol.
Imagine how we would flourish if we legalized and taxed cocaine, heroin, methamphetamine, and all the other goodies Americans crave? NO SARCASM WHATSOEVER.
We could get rid of our ridiculous national debt in a few weeks!
What makes me sigh in exasperation is this bizarre lobby to "legalize and tax" marijuana. I only have one thing to say to that:
DUMBASSES, THAT WON'T DO THE GOVERNMENT OF SHIT OF GOOD, THAT SHIT WOULD BE IMPOSSIBLE TO REGULATE AND SECONDLY NOBODY IS SERIOUSLY ADDICTED TO WEED SO HOW THE HELL WOULD THAT BE BENEFICIAL FOR THE GOVERNMENT ANYWAYS, FUCK YOU, GOODBYE.
If Mary Jane is legal, anyone should be able to grow it in their yard with out the DEA wagging their fat fingers at them.
My final ranting note is my collective hate towards a certain kind of elitist mentality: Straight-Edge.
I don't have a problem with what anybody chooses to/not to consume, meth, weed, crack, whatever, what matters is your attitude.
Some people wear this smug "straight-edge" banner with a fucked up sense of pride like they know better and therefore ARE better. And here is my response to that:
FUCK YOU AND YOUR POMPOUS UNINEBRIATED ASS! GET A LIFE, DON'T STRUT AROUND THINKING YOU'RE SOME GREAT PERSON BECAUSE YOU "JUST SAY NO". GEORGE W. BUSH WAS CLEAN ALL FUCKING 8 YEARS OF HIS "PRESIDENCY" AND HE WAS STILL A JACKASS AND A CLOWN. AND JUST FOR EFFECT, FUCK YOU!
I'm sure I have a few more constructive things to say about substance use and sexuality but I am quite tired now and I think I shall retire shortly. Post your enamorance/hate below.
There's nothing in our national Constitution that has any language or slightest hint of implication of the denial of sexual/reproductive rights. That doesn't mean the states have tried to weasel their way around that.
For example, a piece of Oregon law essentially states that public schools can't promote tolerance of LGBTs; I'd wager other states have it worse.
On to substance use.
What in our lovely national Constitution (no sarcasm intended, seriously, and I suppose with the obvious exception of "general welfare") says Americans don't have the right to use cocaine or whatever if they want to? NONE OF IT.
Early drug laws made sense (Progressive Era, 1870s-1910s), for the most part they restricted the prescription of medications containing serious narcotics (cocaine, opiates, et cetera) from children (which then meant under 14, it was an age when you could get a job and help support your family, and be taken at least a little bit more seriously by society).
Makes sense, doesn't it? Doctors shouldn't recommend potentially harmful and addictive substances to children, who are probably the most susceptible to the negative consequences of use.
The luxurious times preceding the Great Depression lured people with shitloads money to racist and so-called "puritanical" beliefs, (the temperance movement as it's now known, and maybe you get my wind when I say I don't think Carrie Nation was particularly fond of non-whites...). As the Great Depression rolled in, prohibition became incredibly unpopular as alcoholism ran wild.
Now before I put you to sleep with more history, let's zoom forward back to the early 21st century: alcohol is legal and heavily taxed, the government says alcohol use is naughty and bad, but you can still get off with a 0.08 blood-alcohol level (which is a lot of fucking booze, believe it or not). Right, so according to all of those factors, the government profits off of a more or less widespread addiction (I have no problem with that, actually), but where it gets sticky for me is how you CAN drive drunk legally, and why if its such a damned lucrative income for the government, is it also condemned by the government?
And that's just alcohol.
Imagine how we would flourish if we legalized and taxed cocaine, heroin, methamphetamine, and all the other goodies Americans crave? NO SARCASM WHATSOEVER.
We could get rid of our ridiculous national debt in a few weeks!
What makes me sigh in exasperation is this bizarre lobby to "legalize and tax" marijuana. I only have one thing to say to that:
DUMBASSES, THAT WON'T DO THE GOVERNMENT OF SHIT OF GOOD, THAT SHIT WOULD BE IMPOSSIBLE TO REGULATE AND SECONDLY NOBODY IS SERIOUSLY ADDICTED TO WEED SO HOW THE HELL WOULD THAT BE BENEFICIAL FOR THE GOVERNMENT ANYWAYS, FUCK YOU, GOODBYE.
If Mary Jane is legal, anyone should be able to grow it in their yard with out the DEA wagging their fat fingers at them.
My final ranting note is my collective hate towards a certain kind of elitist mentality: Straight-Edge.
I don't have a problem with what anybody chooses to/not to consume, meth, weed, crack, whatever, what matters is your attitude.
Some people wear this smug "straight-edge" banner with a fucked up sense of pride like they know better and therefore ARE better. And here is my response to that:
FUCK YOU AND YOUR POMPOUS UNINEBRIATED ASS! GET A LIFE, DON'T STRUT AROUND THINKING YOU'RE SOME GREAT PERSON BECAUSE YOU "JUST SAY NO". GEORGE W. BUSH WAS CLEAN ALL FUCKING 8 YEARS OF HIS "PRESIDENCY" AND HE WAS STILL A JACKASS AND A CLOWN. AND JUST FOR EFFECT, FUCK YOU!
I'm sure I have a few more constructive things to say about substance use and sexuality but I am quite tired now and I think I shall retire shortly. Post your enamorance/hate below.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Shortish post
Sorry to disappoint any readers expecting my usual lecture but tonight's post is going to be a bit short, as I really need to get some sleep and there isn't much to bitch, rant or dream about at the moment.
When I think "Republican Party", I think "Klu Klux Klan" and "Northwest Socialist Party".
I know racism is a harsh word to bring down on anyone, so I'll make it clear why I whip out that label: the kind of blind anger I witness at Glenn Beck-sponsored "tea-bagging" events is the sort of thing that does not originate through rational thought.
I say this because when rational conservatives talk about President Obama and/or congressional/senatorial Democrats, they say things like "excessive spending" or "irresponsible"; i.e., things that legitimately criticize left-leaning policy.
When "tea-baggers", Rush Limbaugh, Michelle Bachman & Co. say things like "tyranny". "freedom-crushing", "liberty-taking", et cetera, THEY ARE TALKING OUT OF THEIR FAT SMUG ASSES, which is the thought-stem from which encourages people at George Fox University (Newburg, OR) to hang an effigy of Obama from a tree (let's have us a good-ol' fashioned lynchin' shall we?), the kind of delerium that makes Christian zealots think its OK to shoot and kill George Tiller, a doctor who preformed abortions and was an outspoken women's rights advocate; the fact that President Obama has recieved more death-threats on a daily basis than any other American president.
My contention is not "all Republicans/conservative thinkers are racist". I will state however that their behavior, while presumedly not racist, completely and utterly condones the actions of the far-right, and indeed, white-power groups like the Klan and the NW Socialist Party.
Well that's the end of my little rant for tonight, post your enamorance/hate below.
Peace,
~Michael "Cow" Mullinax
When I think "Republican Party", I think "Klu Klux Klan" and "Northwest Socialist Party".
I know racism is a harsh word to bring down on anyone, so I'll make it clear why I whip out that label: the kind of blind anger I witness at Glenn Beck-sponsored "tea-bagging" events is the sort of thing that does not originate through rational thought.
I say this because when rational conservatives talk about President Obama and/or congressional/senatorial Democrats, they say things like "excessive spending" or "irresponsible"; i.e., things that legitimately criticize left-leaning policy.
When "tea-baggers", Rush Limbaugh, Michelle Bachman & Co. say things like "tyranny". "freedom-crushing", "liberty-taking", et cetera, THEY ARE TALKING OUT OF THEIR FAT SMUG ASSES, which is the thought-stem from which encourages people at George Fox University (Newburg, OR) to hang an effigy of Obama from a tree (let's have us a good-ol' fashioned lynchin' shall we?), the kind of delerium that makes Christian zealots think its OK to shoot and kill George Tiller, a doctor who preformed abortions and was an outspoken women's rights advocate; the fact that President Obama has recieved more death-threats on a daily basis than any other American president.
My contention is not "all Republicans/conservative thinkers are racist". I will state however that their behavior, while presumedly not racist, completely and utterly condones the actions of the far-right, and indeed, white-power groups like the Klan and the NW Socialist Party.
Well that's the end of my little rant for tonight, post your enamorance/hate below.
Peace,
~Michael "Cow" Mullinax
Monday, November 23, 2009
Living life "behind the camera", and going to Mars
I think I'm going to try to make a daily habit out of this blogging thing. I hope it will be cathartic.
I'm currently trying to learn to read music...I've been trying to do so for almost a year now...pretty much complete failz. But I keep trying!
A while ago I read about an individual who collected plastic bottles, netted and tied them together, and made a one-man nation, known as Spiral Island. I'm going to do that some day, but with more people and money...who knows, maybe we'll teach the world something. I'll post my speculations about this endeavor at a later time.
Now for bitching.
I feel like I live life "behind the camera". I think this is the reason for my drug use, alcohol especially really helps me escape that. Day to day, life feels listless and uninteresting; I feel like I get up every morning because I have to (although less I'll admit, going to my new school has really helped that); I watch other people giggle and have fun, I chuckle at people's jokes and misfortunes.
I love talking to people, like REALLY talk, I can't for the life of me stand the dullness of silence/smalltalk. But it just doesn't happen...
Exercising has also helped a bit, I see and feel myself get a lot bigger and stronger and feel a small sense of pride about it.
Most of the time my mind is a blank slate, void of much thought at all, my eyes stare vacantly into the space in front of me. On the bus, I hear conversations on the bus but I just don't care, I see shit going down that I don't like but my conscious isn't stirred. I go through the day with minimal energy, I feel tired and generally depressed (not really about anything, just a lowered state of emotion).
When I can stir up the energy to play guitar, it DOES feel great. Music comes out of me and it feels like I'm letting all the shit that clogs my soul out.
Bitch note number two: life ONLY as I know it.
I guess I shouldn't complain about my life's stability regardless of its general dullness, but I have to say, life as I know it is pretty lame: go to school and do the work, and when that's done, booze and smoke and play video games and music. Eat, sleep, poop, et cetera. Although, hmm, maybe that's not so bad...
I'm wondering what life would be like outside of my house, I guess I would just do the same thing in some frat house someplace when I'm in college (if that ever happens) and when that's done with rent some apartment or house and do the same thing with some job that may or may not involve my degree of whatever.
Which leads me to a dream.
Whatever happened to kids dreaming of growing up to become astronauts?! I mean that's so fucking cool! These days, the "New Frontier" is something it seems that us young folk think is just stupid as all hell. I guess that's something I should add to my vast conservative conspiracy theory that the right is subtly indoctrinating us at a young age to disregard science...*ahem* anyways...
Sophomore year of high school I read a terrific astrophysics piece by Robert Zurbin, entitled "The Case For Mars: How and Why Humankind MUST Explore the Red Planet" (or something of that nature, I could be a bit off). As the title kindly points out, Zurbin explains the means, method, and reason for manned missions to explore and eventually COLONIZE Mars.
Hey, I don't know about anyone else but I think that IS FUCKING COOL!
The hell of a trip: he says it would only take about 180 days to get there. Fucking crazy awesome. I would do it even if it was my death sentence.
If nobody else has the ganas or the guts to go, fuck it, I'll do it no matter what kind of crazy radiation poisoning I might get. Science is a glorious cause. In fact, just to add, I don't want my body buried or cremated when I die. Give my blood to someone who needs it, donate the rest of me to science! Or give my heart or my organs or whatever to some person who needs a transplant.
When we finally get our lazy human asses over to Mars, we need to fucking colonize it! I'll do it, shit, it would be kinda dull living 45-lightminutes (distance from Earth to Mars) from everyone I know and love but I'd still be like "bitch I'm on Mars!". Shit would be different on Mars. You can't pollute like you can on Earth because guess what? If you do, you would INSTANTLY fuck over the entire population of the planet.
I think it would be pretty sweet to be 20% lighter. If I could spend just half an hour in 0.8 Gs that would be fantastic.
If this ever happens, I'd like to build a mansion with a nice view of Olympus Mons (a mountain on Mars many MANY times the size of Everest), and I could live there with my family and friends. We could have a ranch to grow Martian corn and raise Martian cattle, and my kids would be the first Martians! Well the first HUMAN Martians at least...hehe.
Hope that was enjoyable, readers! Until next time, post your enamorance/hate below.
Peace
~Michael "Cow" Mullinax
I'm currently trying to learn to read music...I've been trying to do so for almost a year now...pretty much complete failz. But I keep trying!
A while ago I read about an individual who collected plastic bottles, netted and tied them together, and made a one-man nation, known as Spiral Island. I'm going to do that some day, but with more people and money...who knows, maybe we'll teach the world something. I'll post my speculations about this endeavor at a later time.
Now for bitching.
I feel like I live life "behind the camera". I think this is the reason for my drug use, alcohol especially really helps me escape that. Day to day, life feels listless and uninteresting; I feel like I get up every morning because I have to (although less I'll admit, going to my new school has really helped that); I watch other people giggle and have fun, I chuckle at people's jokes and misfortunes.
I love talking to people, like REALLY talk, I can't for the life of me stand the dullness of silence/smalltalk. But it just doesn't happen...
Exercising has also helped a bit, I see and feel myself get a lot bigger and stronger and feel a small sense of pride about it.
Most of the time my mind is a blank slate, void of much thought at all, my eyes stare vacantly into the space in front of me. On the bus, I hear conversations on the bus but I just don't care, I see shit going down that I don't like but my conscious isn't stirred. I go through the day with minimal energy, I feel tired and generally depressed (not really about anything, just a lowered state of emotion).
When I can stir up the energy to play guitar, it DOES feel great. Music comes out of me and it feels like I'm letting all the shit that clogs my soul out.
Bitch note number two: life ONLY as I know it.
I guess I shouldn't complain about my life's stability regardless of its general dullness, but I have to say, life as I know it is pretty lame: go to school and do the work, and when that's done, booze and smoke and play video games and music. Eat, sleep, poop, et cetera. Although, hmm, maybe that's not so bad...
I'm wondering what life would be like outside of my house, I guess I would just do the same thing in some frat house someplace when I'm in college (if that ever happens) and when that's done with rent some apartment or house and do the same thing with some job that may or may not involve my degree of whatever.
Which leads me to a dream.
Whatever happened to kids dreaming of growing up to become astronauts?! I mean that's so fucking cool! These days, the "New Frontier" is something it seems that us young folk think is just stupid as all hell. I guess that's something I should add to my vast conservative conspiracy theory that the right is subtly indoctrinating us at a young age to disregard science...*ahem* anyways...
Sophomore year of high school I read a terrific astrophysics piece by Robert Zurbin, entitled "The Case For Mars: How and Why Humankind MUST Explore the Red Planet" (or something of that nature, I could be a bit off). As the title kindly points out, Zurbin explains the means, method, and reason for manned missions to explore and eventually COLONIZE Mars.
Hey, I don't know about anyone else but I think that IS FUCKING COOL!
The hell of a trip: he says it would only take about 180 days to get there. Fucking crazy awesome. I would do it even if it was my death sentence.
If nobody else has the ganas or the guts to go, fuck it, I'll do it no matter what kind of crazy radiation poisoning I might get. Science is a glorious cause. In fact, just to add, I don't want my body buried or cremated when I die. Give my blood to someone who needs it, donate the rest of me to science! Or give my heart or my organs or whatever to some person who needs a transplant.
When we finally get our lazy human asses over to Mars, we need to fucking colonize it! I'll do it, shit, it would be kinda dull living 45-lightminutes (distance from Earth to Mars) from everyone I know and love but I'd still be like "bitch I'm on Mars!". Shit would be different on Mars. You can't pollute like you can on Earth because guess what? If you do, you would INSTANTLY fuck over the entire population of the planet.
I think it would be pretty sweet to be 20% lighter. If I could spend just half an hour in 0.8 Gs that would be fantastic.
If this ever happens, I'd like to build a mansion with a nice view of Olympus Mons (a mountain on Mars many MANY times the size of Everest), and I could live there with my family and friends. We could have a ranch to grow Martian corn and raise Martian cattle, and my kids would be the first Martians! Well the first HUMAN Martians at least...hehe.
Hope that was enjoyable, readers! Until next time, post your enamorance/hate below.
Peace
~Michael "Cow" Mullinax
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Blog intro
As the title of the blog might imply, this blog is just a place for me to let loose.
So let's get started.
The first thing I would like to bitch about is this: independence, or at least the illusion of it. I'll get to the illusion part shortly.
One thing that I've discovered as a teenager in America is that no matter where you go, public school, private school, whatever, independence means REJECTION. I say this because I have witnessed open-minded, kind, people (including myself) become social pariahs because they do their own thing, which is supposedly encouraged in this terrific society of ours.
Now let me speak from personal experience. I don't listen to the shit that most of my fellow teenagers call "music". I don't wear baggy blue jeans, I don't wear white tee-shirts, I despise Facebook, I don't wear colorful skater-shoes, I don't have a "cluster" of friends, I don't shoot secret handshakes to various people in the halls. I think you get it. If you don't well maybe you and I have something in common. Skanky women, jocky men, or vice versa, et cetera.
Anyways, that all seems to beg the question: what DO I do? I listen to punk rock and metal. I wear tight black jeans, I wear band tees under a punk-rock studded jacket which I made, I love MySpace, I wear ankle-high Doc. Martens, I wear thick dramatic makeup (I'll note here I'm a guy) I have a handbasket of BEST friends, I give silent sneers to people who perpetuate the meaning of EVIL to me.
Dependence, faith, and participation in the status-quo are facts that make the illusion of independence hold strong. The quieter of the crowd depend on the "normal" aspect (i.e., dressing like everyone else so they look like human beings). The loud popular bunch are the ones who create the religion of normality and go about protheletizing for followers; and of course, those too cowardly to think for themselves mindlessly follow.
The irony to me is that independence as defined by this conservative overculture is adherence and dependence on the system. Get good grades, participate in sports, do sober things with large groups of people, go to church/synagouge/mosque/whatever, do what the "in" crowd is doing; the only way to go far in life is to do all of that.
The truth as I see it is that because this is the reigning overculture, it IS the only way to go far in life--pause, EASILY--because nearly everyone will support you. Independence = rejection, if you have your own ideas about how life should be lived, prepare to take a giant societal dick-to-the-face, because nobody wants to hear you. In fact, to reward your new ideas, you'll be humiliated. As I have discovered, the only way to out-penis society is to expand one's own. Figuratively, of course, although physically wouldn't do me any harm either....but I digress.
I say all this being: a Jew, but also an atheist; a punkrock afficionado, a fan of metal; a news addict/political junkie; a drinker and potsmoker and user of psychadelics; this list could go on for a while. Oh I guess it could be added: the fact that I'm spewing my feelings on a blog...is a sure sign of an Edgar Allen Poe.
Anyways readers, my patience for typing has just about expired. I'll post something in the near future. Post your enamorance/hate below.
Peace,
~Michael "Cow" Mullinax
So let's get started.
The first thing I would like to bitch about is this: independence, or at least the illusion of it. I'll get to the illusion part shortly.
One thing that I've discovered as a teenager in America is that no matter where you go, public school, private school, whatever, independence means REJECTION. I say this because I have witnessed open-minded, kind,
Now let me speak from personal experience. I don't listen to the shit that most of my fellow teenagers call "music". I don't wear baggy blue jeans, I don't wear white tee-shirts, I despise Facebook, I don't wear colorful skater-shoes, I don't have a "cluster" of friends, I don't shoot secret handshakes to various people in the halls. I think you get it. If you don't well maybe you and I have something in common. Skanky women, jocky men, or vice versa, et cetera.
Anyways, that all seems to beg the question: what DO I do? I listen to punk rock and metal. I wear tight black jeans, I wear band tees under a punk-rock studded jacket which I made, I love MySpace, I wear ankle-high Doc. Martens, I wear thick dramatic makeup (I'll note here I'm a guy) I have a handbasket of BEST friends, I give silent sneers to people who perpetuate the meaning of EVIL to me.
Dependence, faith, and participation in the status-quo are facts that make the illusion of independence hold strong. The quieter of the crowd depend on the "normal" aspect (i.e., dressing like everyone else so they look like human beings). The loud popular bunch are the ones who create the religion of normality and go about protheletizing for followers; and of course, those too cowardly to think for themselves mindlessly follow.
The irony to me is that independence as defined by this conservative overculture is adherence and dependence on the system. Get good grades, participate in sports, do sober things with large groups of people, go to church/synagouge/mosque/whatever, do what the "in" crowd is doing; the only way to go far in life is to do all of that.
The truth as I see it is that because this is the reigning overculture, it IS the only way to go far in life--pause, EASILY--because nearly everyone will support you. Independence = rejection, if you have your own ideas about how life should be lived, prepare to take a giant societal dick-to-the-face, because nobody wants to hear you. In fact, to reward your new ideas, you'll be humiliated. As I have discovered, the only way to out-penis society is to expand one's own. Figuratively, of course, although physically wouldn't do me any harm either....but I digress.
I say all this being: a Jew, but also an atheist; a punkrock afficionado, a fan of metal; a news addict/political junkie; a drinker and potsmoker and user of psychadelics; this list could go on for a while. Oh I guess it could be added: the fact that I'm spewing my feelings on a blog...is a sure sign of an Edgar Allen Poe.
Anyways readers, my patience for typing has just about expired. I'll post something in the near future. Post your enamorance/hate below.
Peace,
~Michael "Cow" Mullinax
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